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Juhannus... ja mitä mä teen?? oon YKSIN KOTONA. kyllä, meidän talossa ei oo ketään muuta ennen huomista, joitain tyyppejä lähti ILMAJOELLE jonnekki megabileisiin ei kiinnostanut oikeen ja mulla oli plan b joka EPÄOPNNISTUI, eli nyt oon juhannusaaton yksin kotona ilman alkoholia ja ilman mitään. en voi ees hankkia leffoja koska makuuni ei varmaan oo auki ja sataa. vittu.... aion kuunnella musiikkia ja laulaa ja hyppiä mikä on kivaa mutta AAAAHHHHHHH MITÄ HELVETTIÄ.

Patti Smith - Pastime Paradise

oon täälä ehkä taas?

Nobody reads this so I guess I'll stop posting. so sad. WHY CAN'T YOU PEOPLE BE INTERESTED IN MY HAILING OVER ALL THESE THINGS??? :((( maybe some posts coming up later, I don't think this is the right place though.. but, whatever.

Autumn, Winter.

Cold.

That's what I hate about it. At school, I have to have at least two long sleeved shirts, and that really cuts the freedom of choice and creativity in clothing. I suppose I should get more knitwear and cardigans.... It's actually kind of the same thing in summer these days, accept the opposite, then it's so hot you can't wear anything but sleeveless shirts and shorts/skirts or dresses. That's why spring and the early fall are maybe the easiest seasons. Coldness, in my opinion is the worst thing.

But there are good things about autumn and winter too. Being home never feels quite as enjoyable as during the cold season, even going to a hot shower feels like something luxurious. Is there anything more relaxing than having some good food, warm clothes and a good movie to watch? Speaking of which, I rented four movies (from the library, saved a lot of money), one french movie, Les Amants Du Point Neuf with Juliette Binoche, where a homeless person and an artist fall in love. Artists are obviously cool, and homeless people... they're interesting, aren't they? I've always had a thing for homeless people... they're pretty mysterious. Then, David Lynch's Wild at Heart, I thought I have to see a David Lynch film, since I've heard (read) so much about him lately. Then, some classics, the James Dean film Rebel Without a Cause, 'cause I ought to see a James Dean movie, he's after all an important character in the family tree of coolness. Last but not least, Fellini's 8½.
So, it's weekend, I don't have any obligations, I have good food and I have movies. Even my usual "I'm-so-lonely" mood is gone. What's there not to like?

I'm feeling pretty european now. When we have our projectweek at school, I have decided to go to Holland, although that means I have to take some courses, which means I have to design the rest of the year all over... again.... but, no matter, I'm getting to Amsterdam and Btussel and stuff. I was supposed to go to France, but you don't even get to go to Paris in that project, so... Holland it is.  And the other european thing, I'm pretty interested about this school in Belgium... (mind you, a country bordered by Holland), it's the Antwerp Royal Academy of Fine Arts, the fashion department. I know I've wowed about the London College of Fashion, but this seems pretty cool too, and probably more realistic. Looks like my French and German studies might come handy after all!
Here's some greatness from Antwerp students:

Arden Wohl at a New York halloween party

This is the most random thing ever but I just wanted to post this picture here. I'm so in love with it! Sure it's just some random capture from a party and the arm looks kind of srange, but I love it how it's so random! (how many times can I say "random" in one post??)  And the naked person behind there just makes it perfect... Now I'm even more upset that none of my friends threw a halloween party. I have a strange thing for costumes, I mean the jokestores catalogue is one of my common pass-times... unfortunately it only has like four pages :(
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picture from Style.com

The Ark was great, it's really one of those bands that when you see them live you feel like you've seen the light... and, who could not get religious vibes from Ola Salo?? I mean, why believe in god when there's people like him walking this earth?? Ark isn't actually even one of my favourite bands, like I don't have their records or anything, but I still love them, and the idea they represent. And I do have a 70's glamrocker inside me, I used to be so in love with that scene when I was on 7th and 8th grade...But, I mean I still love it, and I listen to Bowie and all, but that's just how things go, you fall in love with something and wow about it until you fall in love with something else. But that doesn't mean you wouldn't still love it,  the thrill just fades and the love sort of... becomes a part of you, your persona and identity. That's how it is in human relationships too.
I know bands are always saying "you have been an amazing crowd, you're the best" and stuff, but I always believe them. But seriously, when everyones all sweaty and ecstatic it always feels so special and like... this is The Best Thing ever!!!! I think it's intense love. (I know I'm naïve, ok? but y'know, it was all about the Power, Glory and Magic of Love!!) Ola also expressed their dissatisfaction about the Eurovision song contest. but yeah, I agree, it did suck.
The opening act was amazing too, it was Moto boy, who's also The Arks substitute guitarist on tour, I don't know where the real one is. When he got on stage and started singing... everybody was like "oh my god! what the hell??" 'cause he sang really, really high. And really strongly and clearly. It was really great and extraordinary in a way. I know, it's maybe kinda emo but with that glam and bizarre edge to it that makes it gorgeous. I've been repeating the four songs in his myspace like crazy, here, see / hear for yourselves. I recommend. here's some crappy photography:

Moto boy

Ok my "captures" of The Ark are even worse, so maybe, I won't put them here... maybe I'll just tell you that they had all these great costumes, a lot of leather and Ola had various gorgeous jackets and headpieces, and in the encore they were, of course all in white accept Ola in a golden jumpsuit. Yes, a very tight golden jumpsuit. or maybe "catsuit" would be a more describing word?

Sweden, 12 Points!

Ok this is pretty random, but I'm going to see The Ark today, which is pretty exiting, altough right now I'm pretty tired. The whole week has been kina depressing and dreadful. One day, I tried to study for an exam but I couldn't, and there was nothing I wanted to do. I just didn't feel anything at all, it was so awful. I feel slightly out of place I guess... (I know, I know, "shut up emokid") but maybe tonight will make it better... glam it up a bit. Afterall, music is a very emotional and powerful thing. I'm actually kind of interested how mutch effort people will put into dressing up, afterall it is The Ark. So I'm expecting something real shiny :)
Here's a demonstration of this week:

Before The Ark                                           After The Ark

 3 reasons to be rather pissed off right now:

1. I'm having a housewarming party tonight, but a very few people are coming. I always imagined my housewarming party to be like some huge happening, but it seems that people really arent that interested... I'm especially unhapy about the absence of a certain person that I haven't seen or talked to in a while...  In addition, no-ones going to drink anything, so I have to serve them food, and I had to go to the supermarket to buy food. I felt pretty middle-aged. I mean, using my own money on food! And, I still feel like I should have more food to serve....

2. Today I tried to pull off a boho-tech look. Yep, you guessed it.... I ended up looking like a mess.



well, it doesn't look so messy here, but the leggins are neon blue, and the scarf is forestgreen and brown...

3. I feel incredibly fat. It's not like I had eaten a lot today, and I know I'm not fat, but suddenly I just started feeling my mass much more... disgusting. I don't feel comfortable at all.

but no matter, I found a cool bracelet and a pink leather bow to ease the pain.